There comes a point is everyones lives when they have to realize who they are. Who really matters and who you thought would be your friend forever but in the end they get to caught up in other things and other people to want to hang out with you and they forget about you. And the People who will always matter and be there for you. Some people it makes them a while to realize it. Others they never do. Sometimes before you know it the people you thought would always be there are gone. And you think to yourself how did that happen? Some people just don't care, they go around saying everyone is special and everyone is there best friend. But bewar don't always believe them, beucase then you don't have to hurt when they go and say that to someone else. sometimes you think you have found the best friend and you think you will be friend forever. But forever is so long and best friend only last as long as one another have things in common and talk to eacher. And once that's gone your not best friend you just know the person and the person knows you. People will almost believe anything that other people will say. but I have some advice for you. It will save you alot of hurt and alot of drama if you just don't Believe them.There comes a point in your life when you have the choice to believe them or not. But if you do Or not well that's your decision.

Decisions

Sometimes I wonder how the little things in life can be so hard, like when you have to make a decision like to go over to a friends house or go to a naborhood cook out. These little decisions can impact you a lot, you just don't relize it until it has done it's damage, or it's good. Sometimes we get to into the big decisions that we forget that the little decisions are even there. It's jut like you see the little picture of things in your life, but what you don't see if what your missing the big picture of you, of your life. You see the little picture of you and how these decisions will affect you know buy you don't see how they will affect you later. You see the little picture of your life but someone else see's a bigger picture, the truth is you are just a part of a picture just a piece of the puzzle if you would like to say., and everyone is a puzzle, but when all the pieces come together it make the puzzle complete. It's just the same with you and the role you play in your life. You don't see the little things only the big things, you only see your little picture not the big picture.

Life is hard to explain, just as you think you have it figured out it changes and you want something different, you want to Change to be like everyone else, you want new things better things you want perfect hair and you want to be pretty and not ugly you want nicer for expensive clothes you want a boyfriend or girl friend you want everyone to love you, you want more and more and pretty soon life is not good enough for you. You feel like you are smarter and better than you where before. But the truth is we have all wanted these things before we have all been though this all before, but we just keep doing it and doing it because that's how we are that's the way we think. We want everything to be more perfect we want better friend we want to loss weight, we want all these things and yet we can't even seem to look around for even a moment and relize that other people in other countries are starving and here we are one of the most over weight states. They have nothing and here we are wanting more and more and sooner or later we have to wake up and look around and see this.
I thought i new what I wanted to do with my life I thought I had the neatest friend in the whole world and we would be friends forever I wanted so much and I seaside to relize that I was trying to compare myself to the rest of the world to see what they wanted and what they thought of Me. So I changed myself for others for what they wanted not what I wanted. I had thought that I had such a good friend and then something happened. she changed she wanted more and more she got smarter and she did her hair all pretty and she started to care so much about her that she sorta forgot to think to ask about how someone was doing, she started to care about how she looked and about what people thought of her. and I found myself thinking what made us friends in the first place? I didn't know her I knew her but so much had changed I had forgotten why we had became friends in the first place. But I remember why and I can barley remember because she has changed. It's not her fault and it's not my fault it just happens. I still love her to death just the way she is, but everything is not the same and in a way that's just fine. but other times I just want her to be back but that's just the way it works, things come and go , people change so you can learn how to let go, things go wrong so you can appereate them when they are right, you believe lies so evenally you trust no one but yourself, and sometimes things fall apart so better things can fall together