Why?

why is it that we always dint notice the people around us? Why is it that we play stupid games that could kill us? Why is it that we want so much to fit In we forget about the things that really matter? How come we are okay with being mean to someone but when they are crying we are nice even if we don't like them? How come people can go and kill the sled with out even thinking about how the outcome will effect everyone and not just them? how come we ate okay will drinking and smoking but when it comes down to life we don't really care? How come we don't notice stuff until its too late? Why it is that we never talk to anyone other than our friends? Why is it so easy for some people to put a knife to there arm and say it's okay? Why is it so easy to be nice to someone well they are crying? Why is it that so many people take their own life's? Why is it so many people think there is no other way out?

the last few days I have been hearing about this girl. The rumor was she either hung herself with a belt or she was playing a choking game at a party and her friends forgot about her. Her dad found her on the ground and they took her to the hospital she has been in accoma for the last 3 days, yesterday I heard she died then I heard she didn't. But thoses are all just rumors. And them today we got a letter saying that she was donating her organs well her parents were. They decided to poll the plug because she had been On life support for a long time and there was like no chance. she was only in 7th grade! Now what is wrong with that!!! why is this world so bad that people are killing themselfs left and right. at lunch today this girl and this other girl were talking and they got in an argument over what happened to her my friend said that she played the choking game and this other girl said she hung herself. my friend said there is always a reason why someone does something. And the other girl said no she could have gist done it cause. And my friend said no trust me there is always a reason why they want to take there own life. I would now I had 2 people in my family do that she said. everyone today was crying. I found out that she was in my gym class and I saw her like everyday, but never said hi she was very nice and a happy girl at school, and just think I could have talked to get before she died if I just would have said hi. It's amazing how someone can be here one minute and the next theyre gone. Three people have dies well look there own life's in the last two months. one fr maple grove one from osseo and one from Rogers. And there are more. What was so horrible that they took theyre own lives?


I didn't know you that well but I knew you were a nice girl and Alot of people knew you, you were very pretty and you were always happy at school you liked sparkles. You will be missed greatly by everyone. If you could see everyone now you would be suprised about how many people cryed and are still cryibg for you, and how many people put sparkles all over them just for you(: But I know you are probably in a better place. may you rest in peace paige klick.

Heyy

Sorry I haven't posted anything in a while. I've just been busy with track which I very sad to say is over tell next year. Oh well... There is always cross country(: school is good ALL the teachers are getting annoyed of the kids and all the kids ate annoyed of the teachers cause they just want summer already!!!

it's time to let go.. Let go of all the pain and hurt and be done with it. Start over or again. Make what was once broken and heal it. Make once was wrong right. Try to fix things even If you think it will not do any good. Try your very best to succeed. Make once was broken right.


I'm laying here in my bed it's 11:19 and I can't sleep. I have school tomorrow and right now
My room is way to hot that's why I can't sleep because someone took the fan):

Let go. Pray for those who prosecute you for my sake. What ever you do to the least of theses you are doing to me. This means that I will never flood the earth again. and there way day and there was night. who ever belives in god shall not Parrish but have eternal life. For I am with you always. you cannot hide because I see all, the good and the bad. You are my shepored I shall not want you make me lay down into green pastors you restore my soul. Even though I walk though the valley of death. I fear no evil for my rode and my staff comfort me. he will lay down his life for his sheep. Just ad I layed downy life for a friend. So know that u am dying for you. I am dying so you dint have too. Father forgive them they know not what they do. It is finished.

Well it is now 11:34 and I still can't sleep. Anyways Thats what was going though my head so I decided to write it down for you all to read. Kay bye

my life

My life is like a rollercoaster one day its amazing the next its bad. I come home some days to people fighting other days I come home to you forgot to do your chorse, while other days its just normal. My life is complicated.... Somedays all I wanna do is curl up in a ball and hide from the world. School is stressful and hard trying to get good grades ALL the time while still trying to make your parents happy and make you happy.you have to wake up and put on your mask and then go to school and change your mask. see everyone has a mask.

But I just dont want to be anyone
over the years of growing up i have learned some very important thins one is not to lie because once you start you cant stop and even when you do some people still think your lying. two never jugde people if you have never met them because once you do and they are nothing like you expected you will feel sorry. three
never be someone your not this world is "fake" the magizenes you arent real people really arent that skinny you see they edit out all the imporfections all the flaws that make you well you. You see they do this so that you will try to become better to become more perfect and the truth is thats just what they want. its all about advertising and publicity.They change you into thinking that your not pretty enough and that you need to change they say you need better skin cause you have some minor flaws on your face or your not skinny enough you need to be annerexic and not eat.
but i have something to say to you. you dont have to listen to them. EVERYONE has a choice no matter what you have a choice to lsiten or to drowned out the voices, to stop or yo go, to live or to die. 

I've been living in my own little world where everything to me is well perfect becuase well its your little world and in your world nothing can hurt you. I wake up one day and relized I have been living a lie,And at that moment i opened my eyes and relized that everyone is fighting there own war. I sometimes pretend that im tough and that nothing can hurt me but you know under that im hurting and all I want is for someone to stop and ask whats wrong? But if you ask me I say Im fine because i dont want anyone to see that i hurt to see me... with no makeup on without a mask on Me compromised Me not skinny as model me and all my freckes me well me.... I've been trying so hard to fit in that i forgot about everything else that makes lifes moments the little ones and the big ones. I have been trying to please my parents make them proud of me because thats what every kid wants is for there parents love and approvel. But sometimes you have to stop and think am I doing this for me or for them? sometimes all you need to do is step back and let go..... let go of all the crap and shit in your life and just bring it all to God. now i know you are thinking wow that sounds lame and god i belive in God but really do you or are you just saying that? I belive in God i believe that he died on the cross for my sins and for ALL our sins. He died on the cross so WE didnt have to! we would all be on a cross wiped and beated but he did for us. Jesus said before he did "God forgive them they know not what they do". If you think about it he is saying that we dont know what we are doing and we need his help. he also said "I will lay down my life for my sheep i will lay down my life for my friends and remember that I am dying for you" I also say that I will read the bible but then I don't because I am to "busy" too. I pray when I need gods help and when i go to bed otherwise i dont think about him. But I should I should think about him everyday and not just when I need his help. Jesus was a human he went though everything we did he wasen't perfect he had acne he was beaten,bruised and he was hurt. He had to find a jod just like us, he had to go to hell and he after 3 days I think it was of torture and tare by the devil he went to heaven. so if you think that hes not like us and he cant relate to us he can!! He is here all you have to do is pray and look up and know that he is watching over you.

my life is not perfect no one is. we all have our own problems. so before you go around and jugde people stop because everyone is fighting their own war.

I like collecting stuff and I keep it because people give it to be
but I found that its not about the gift its about the love that was
put ito it. Even if its goes the memory is still there.

I look out the window and think how lucky I am to have so much
when other people have nothing. I see what other people
miss I look and dont see a person I see
a person who matters  has a name and has a story of there own.
I look and see what I could have done different.

this is me and Im not changing for you or anyone else because Im
sick of trying to act like someone Im not beucase
in all of this ive found out Im me
not anyone else.

close your eyes take a step and pray to God you will get there

sometimes you need to forget about all the things that
are telling you,you shouldent and
just go out and do it.

they made a statue of us and put it on a moutain top

sometimes you just have to go and curl up in a corner
and read because the books are more real than time.

I am crazy to the outside world. I go outside when its 20* and
just have fun. I am superman with a criptenight.
I still like whinny the pooh so yeah im still a little kid at
heart.  I stay up with my friends and laugh and talk trip and fall.
put face masks on that make me look like a zombie.
sleep outside under the stars and get eaten
by masquetoes. go conewing and fall in.
 to the outside world in crazy but to me
this is my life and Im living it.



summers coming so get ready for the fun  joy  hurt
love friendship  and everything else summer brings <3



even when you feel like hes not here.
even when it gets hard.

there is a lot we havent discoved yet
and I wanna be the first to discover something new.



your strongger than you think. faster than you seem.
God loves you and is always here even when the odds say no.
he thinkd of you everyday and is rimnding you to do the right thing
so before you go and mess up STOP think and just take a
moment to breathe and remeber he is always here.



everyone needs some color in there life



if you look at this world you will find something different
every time you see it



some day im gonna walk on the moon

be yourself dont be something your not, because it is said better
to be hated for who you are then
loved for who you are not